Thinking About You

2013年暫時未有令自己瘋狂愛上的音樂，結果二月快將過去，我還是在重溫去年的作品。《Channel Orange》的魔力維持了七個月仍沒有褪減過，Frank Ocean依然是每天要在Goggle例牌搜尋的字詞。兩年來，自己腦海中擁有的、渴望的、幻想的東西，全都被這位男歌手囊括其中，「法海」儼如完美的代名詞。

曾說過〈Thinkin' Bout You〉平平無奇的我，2012年完結後竟然不停重温這首大眾的最愛。歌寫得很好，歌詞開首「一場風暴摧毀我的家園後，你便來了」，已將對方的出現，寫得浪漫而不經意，震撼力卻與風暴的強度可比。自己的世界被不速之客入侵了，整天也想着對方，甚至想過這個人能否與自己長相廝守，但是，別人有想念過自己嗎？

「不，我只是覺得你很酷，很可愛，但不是喜歡你」當發現對這個人產生好感，去到不能自拔的地步，為了抑制這份失控的情感，只好藉着無視對方的好，使自己放棄這個人。遇上心儀的人，感到愛的存在，明明是一段經歷中最高興的時間，卻因為要逼着自己不愛對方，反而成為一件憾事。

最後對方沒有與自己在一起，但心終究還是動了。還記得心動那頃刻，曾經希望能與對方做的事嗎？可惜從心窗被打開那一天開始，你便每一天都為這份感情的結束倒數，每一次心動總是令人難忘，但你也知道這一定不是最後一次。

歌曲最讓人傷感的，就是從到尾發生的東西都很美好，而結局卻如此無奈。



A tornado flew around my room before you came
Excuse the mess it made, it usually doesn't rain
In Southern California, much like Arizona
My eyes don't shed tears, but boy they pour when

I'm thinking 'bout you (Ooh no, no, no)
I've been thinking 'bout you (You know, know, know)
I've been thinking 'bout you
Do you think about me still? Do ya, do ya?

Or do you not think so far ahead
Cause I been thinking bout forever, ooh
Or do you not think so far ahead
Cause I been thinking 'bout forever, ooh

No, I don't like you, I just thought you were cool enough to kick it
Got a beach house I could sell you in Idaho, since you think
I don't love you I just thought you were cute, that's why I kissed you
Got a fighter jet, I don't get to fly it though I'm lying down

Yes of course I remember, how could I forget how you feel?
You know you were my first time, a new feel
It will never get old, not in my soul, not in my spirit, keep it alive
We'll go down this road 'til it turns from color to black and white